It's been a while since I've checked in and tonight I had this overwhelming urge to jump on my laptop and jot down my thoughts. I hope that everyone reading this blog is in Good Spirits.
Life over the past few months have been nothing short of amazing. Now that doesn't mean that things have been perfect, because that is definitely not the case. However, I am able to see the presence of GOD and how HE has been hearing me for a long time, but I wasn't ready to receive the TRUE desires of my heart. Over the past few months going back to last year, I lost the GREATEST MAN I ever knew.... My grandfather. But, HE was one of the GREATEST gifts GOD has ever bestowed upon me besides my daughter. Spending the last few years of his life with him was a true Blessing. And although there were times when I was overwhelmed and at my wits end, I was there and I am Grateful and Honored.
The last 5 weeks I have been attending a Women's Workshop and it has been amazing and life changing all at the same time. As the new year started there had been some major shifts in my life and I said to myself that I would do some things different because I wanted different results. So, I decided to sign up for this workshop. I had reservations because it meant that I had to make a commitment to be in attendance for 7 weeks, one day a week. But, I GOT OUT OF MY OWN WAY and It has been one of the BEST decisions I have made in 2015. The workshop is an Empowerment workshop for women including teenage women and it has been life changing. GOD has truly revealed some things to me and my soul has been renewed. For so long I had asked for things that I WANTED. The things that I thought would make me happy and GOD gave me everything I asked for and I still wasn't happy. I mean from men, to cars, to money, to whatever until finally I became tired of still not being fulfilled, still feeling empty. I finally submitted and asked GOD to MOVE ME OUT OF MY OWN WAY.. It was like HE sat me down and said ... OK MY CHILD I HAVE GIVEN YOU EVERYTHING YOU HAVE DESIRED AND YET YOU ARE STILL UNHAPPY, STILL UNFULFILLED, AND STILL NOT IN ALIGNMENT WITH THE BLESSINGS I HAVE FOR YOU. NOW IT'S TIME FOR ME TO GIVE YOU THE BLESSINGS I HAVE FOR YOU... THE BLESSINGS THAT I HAVE ALWAYS HAD FOR YOU, BUT YOU WEREN'T READY TO RECEIVE THEM. I NEEDED YOU TO GET KNOCKED DOWN A FEW TIMES SO THAT I COULD SHOW YOU THAT THIS IS NOT WHAT I HAVE PLANNED FOR YOU. YOU WEREN'T READY TO LISTEN TO ME. YOU HEARD ME, BUT YOU WEREN'T READY TO LISTEN AND DO THE THINGS THAT I NEEDED YOU TO DO TO GET IN ALIGNMENT. BUT YOU ARE READY NOW. YOU STILL HAVE SOME LESSONS TO LEARN, BUT YOU ARE OPEN AND READY TO RECEIVE.
As I read these lines back to myself I am blown away because of how MERCIFUL GOD is. I've questioned so many things for so long, but I understand now. I am finally starting to GET IT!! FOR WHAT IS UNDERSTOOD DOESN'T NEED TO BE EXPLAINED....
NAMASTE
