COMING OF AGE

GOD HAS BLESSED ME TO SEE ANOTHER YEAR AND I AM GRATEFUL!! This past Saturday I turned 35 years of age. This is not quite where I envisioned my life, but I know that I am exactly where I am supposed to be. Of course all of you know that I have definitely gone through a lot these last few years, but I have overcome a plethora of obstacles with my head held high. I have found myself more chill as I get older. My appreciation for peace in all of its forms has definitely grown. My mom is in GREAT spirits and seems to be on the right track right now. I am coming to the end of my post-graduate studies and I couldn't be happier. My little sister is doing well also and I am very proud of her. My grandfather is still alive and kicking and my job situation has improved as well. GOD has blessed my family in various ways and I can honestly say that I am grateful. At the end of the day I am STRONGER, WISER, and MY INDIVIDUAL LEVEL of SELF-AWARENESS has been heightened. I CAN'T WAIT UNTIL MY NEXT BIRTHDAY TO SEE HOW MUCH FURTHER I HAVE ADVANCED AND IN WHAT SPECIFIC AREAS OF MY LIFE. PEACE AND BLESSINGS!!

I AM HAPPY

Life can unfold in so many ways that its amazing. A few months ago my life was in a totally different place. I was unemployed, my mom was not well, and I was spinning my wheels on how I was going to pay my bills. I held a lot of resentment and anger towards people who hurt me and I was stuck. Stuck in a place that was not healthy for me. I had to let all of those things go and push forward. I found myself holding on to people that I should of let go a long time ago. But I have such a kind heart that I always try to see the best in people and I believe that it is that side that people will give to me. How wrong was I. But trust me it is a lesson learned. I am in a much better place and things are definitely moving in the right direction. I know that there will be a few more bumps in the road, but I'm prepared to handle what comes my way. I WAS BUILT FORD TOUGH!! Lol I can truly say that I AM HAPPY!! I am starting a new job, my mom is feeling better, my daughter had an amazing freshman year, and GOD has blessed me to see another year as I am waiting to turn 35 in a few weeks. I know that I am where I am supposed to be. I just need to be patient and enjoy the ride. Relax a little and feel the breeze. GOD BLESS

GETTING BETTER

My mom has been home for a few weeks now and her change has been amazing. GOD IS SOO GOOD!! The most important thing is my mom is finally at peace with herself and this illness that she has. I have never seen her laugh so much. She has so much joy within her spirit and it is refreshing to see. She is much more active and she is really making an effort to do the things that she needs to do in order to live a happier more functionable life. Mental health is extremely important and it is definitely not something that we should ever take for granted. You have to know when to take time out for yourself. You must know that it is okay to break down in the hardest of times. Its olay to admit when you make a mistake, just learn from it and move forward. My mom is a very intelligent woman and that has never changed. Even during the toughest times of her illness, doctors would tell me how high functioning she is, and how intelligent she is, and how she can coomunicate in ways that most people can not communicate. I am just glad to see her back, getting back to what she knows, becoming more comfortable with herself and with the life that she has to live. She still has a long journey ahead of her but I am confident that my mom will do extremely well. GOD BLESS ALL!!

Making Moves

So about a week ago I received a phone call from a friend inquiring if I was interested in working a second part time gig. Of course I said yes. My friend said she would forward my never and have her friend call me. A few days passed by and by the end of the week I received a phone call. I interviewed the very next day, and by the following day I was offered the job. I am so excited. Of course I will be more like full-time because that is what I prefer anyway. I am stepping away from the field I was currently in, which is working with developmentally disabled adults. I will be entering into a field I am familiar with, but this job is a bit different. I am ready to take the bull by the horns. I see some amazing opportunities coming from this job and I am definitely excited. GOD has really done some phenomenal things with my life and the life of my family members these past few weeks. I am eternally grateful for all that MY FATHER does and will continue to do. It is time for me to put my words into action. My next step is to copyright my book, which I must admit I have been dragging my feet on. I cant wait. GOD has revealed some amazing things to me and the truth is the  only one stopping me from receiving my full blessings is ME!! Through self-awareness and enlightenment I have come to terms with some characteristics that must be changed. It is not an easy task because we all know that has human beings we are creature of habit. Unfortunately not all habits are healthy whether it be physical, mental, or even spiritual. The one thing I know I lack for sure is consistency in folloing my own plans. I am always more than willing to help others and follow through with others, but I lack the focus to follow through on my own things. That will all change soon. I THANK YOU ALL FOR SHARING MY EXPERIENCES WITH ME AND LISTENING TO MY VOICE!! WE ALL HAVE ONE AND IT SHOULD BE HEARD!! GOD BLESS!!

Recognizing The Peace Within

Searching for peace doesnt always have to be the difficult task that we often make it. Peace is closer than we realize. Often times we search for peace through material and superficial things and then wonder why once we have acquired all of these things why are we still unhappy. Sometimes all it takes is just sitting still long enough to hear THE GOD IN YOUR HEART! For so many that is extremely hard to do. Human beings can never sit down long to enough to appreciate the small things. Its those very things that make the big things possible. Oh how often we take for granted the simple things life brings our way. Currently I have found myself trying to find peace. I am currently employed part-time and I am indeed grateful. It is not the original position that I applied for , but it is something. I was unemployed for over and a year and it was tough. Although, I have I job i continuously find myself frustrated when its pay check time. I'm stressing and trying to find a way to make my dollar stretch. I just can't understand it. During this time though, I have realized the value of chasing my dreams and going to get my BLESSINGS. I've been sitting around long enough. Now it is time to make some things happen. But, I must make sure that my spirit is at peace. A soul unrest is not good. I'm learning to be happy and appreciate the small things. Finding the peace within is definitely my mission. And it starts within MYSELF!! PEACE AND BLESSINGS

TRU HAPPINESS

This very statement speaks of a truth that so many people live by. Happiness is NOT something that you chase. You don't have to chase what is inside of you. It would be the same process as a dog running around in circles chasing his tail. (LOL) Funny but true. I have been someone at one point and time in my life who was on this very chase and no matter how many times happiness seemed to run away, getting faster each time, I kept trying to catch up with it. By the end of the race I was exhausted. But, each time that I took a deep breath and sat still long enough, HAPPINESS and PEACE were all around me. Take the time to sit back long enough to HEAR GOD'S WORDS and HEED HIS BLESSINGS!!

So many times we become so focused on the wrong things that we take away from our own Happiness. We are creatures of habit, unfortunately all habits are not good. And some instances, detrimental to our well being. Like the old saying goes, "Never keep all of your eggs in one basket." (I think that's correct...LOL) We must be well versed in what we do. It is important to have more than one plan, more than one way to meet a goal. HELL have more than one goal!! Take it to the LIMIT!! Give it all you've got and GIVE THE REST TO GOD!! And remember Happiness comes from within!! Peace and Blessings

When Love Is All U Have

What happens when LOVE is all you have? Is that one thing strong enough for you to survive on? Many people spend their entire life looking for LOVE. What many fail to realize is....LOVE ISN'T something you have to go and search for! It lays within each and every one of us! Unfortunately many have their own TAINTED definition of what LOVE IS!! (LOL) It's funny but it is sad. For centuries we find ourselves searching for something that has been right in front of us the entire time. We were created in LOVE, and LOVE is all around us. We simply choose not to see it because we are focused on soo many other things that WE allow to make us happy! Or so we think. LOVE and HAPPINESS come from within. We must manifest our own happiness and we must first learn to LOVE ourselves.