Recognizing The Peace Within

Searching for peace doesnt always have to be the difficult task that we often make it. Peace is closer than we realize. Often times we search for peace through material and superficial things and then wonder why once we have acquired all of these things why are we still unhappy. Sometimes all it takes is just sitting still long enough to hear THE GOD IN YOUR HEART! For so many that is extremely hard to do. Human beings can never sit down long to enough to appreciate the small things. Its those very things that make the big things possible. Oh how often we take for granted the simple things life brings our way. Currently I have found myself trying to find peace. I am currently employed part-time and I am indeed grateful. It is not the original position that I applied for , but it is something. I was unemployed for over and a year and it was tough. Although, I have I job i continuously find myself frustrated when its pay check time. I'm stressing and trying to find a way to make my dollar stretch. I just can't understand it. During this time though, I have realized the value of chasing my dreams and going to get my BLESSINGS. I've been sitting around long enough. Now it is time to make some things happen. But, I must make sure that my spirit is at peace. A soul unrest is not good. I'm learning to be happy and appreciate the small things. Finding the peace within is definitely my mission. And it starts within MYSELF!! PEACE AND BLESSINGS

TRU HAPPINESS

This very statement speaks of a truth that so many people live by. Happiness is NOT something that you chase. You don't have to chase what is inside of you. It would be the same process as a dog running around in circles chasing his tail. (LOL) Funny but true. I have been someone at one point and time in my life who was on this very chase and no matter how many times happiness seemed to run away, getting faster each time, I kept trying to catch up with it. By the end of the race I was exhausted. But, each time that I took a deep breath and sat still long enough, HAPPINESS and PEACE were all around me. Take the time to sit back long enough to HEAR GOD'S WORDS and HEED HIS BLESSINGS!!

So many times we become so focused on the wrong things that we take away from our own Happiness. We are creatures of habit, unfortunately all habits are not good. And some instances, detrimental to our well being. Like the old saying goes, "Never keep all of your eggs in one basket." (I think that's correct...LOL) We must be well versed in what we do. It is important to have more than one plan, more than one way to meet a goal. HELL have more than one goal!! Take it to the LIMIT!! Give it all you've got and GIVE THE REST TO GOD!! And remember Happiness comes from within!! Peace and Blessings

When Love Is All U Have

What happens when LOVE is all you have? Is that one thing strong enough for you to survive on? Many people spend their entire life looking for LOVE. What many fail to realize is....LOVE ISN'T something you have to go and search for! It lays within each and every one of us! Unfortunately many have their own TAINTED definition of what LOVE IS!! (LOL) It's funny but it is sad. For centuries we find ourselves searching for something that has been right in front of us the entire time. We were created in LOVE, and LOVE is all around us. We simply choose not to see it because we are focused on soo many other things that WE allow to make us happy! Or so we think. LOVE and HAPPINESS come from within. We must manifest our own happiness and we must first learn to LOVE ourselves.

SAD BUTTERFLY

This blog is going to be my venting blog today! So please excuse me in advance. (lol).... Of course as you all know I have been excited about this new job I thought I would be starting at the end of January. Well the end of January has come and gone and I still have not started the job! Well let me explain. On the 30th I decided to email the recruiter and inquire about what was going on. I explained to her the phone call that I received and the information that I was told. Well I received a follow up email from the recruiter and I did receive an email from the employee that I interviewed with. It seems there was some misinformation!! So come to find out I am one of the candidates chosen for the position,BUT unfortunately there isn't any positions available at this time. However, my profile has been put to the side, and when a position opens at the facility I will be contacted!! (mind you this is a rehab center and this location is fairly new and right now there is not enough patients, so no additional staff is needed at the time) I was at a complete loss for words. The young woman who contacted me did not inform me correctly! I can't believe it and my days lately have been long and hard. I just don't understand what's going on. I just had to shed a few tears today. But, hopefully this butterfly will no longer be sad very soon!!

FAITH

We live by FAITH and NOT by sight!! Words to live by and often times words that are hard to stay true to. Last month I was some amazing news about receiving a job! I was also told that I would be receiving a follow up phone call that would inform me of my beginning my NEO (new employee orientation) process. I was also informed that the job would officially start at the end of January. I was definitely okay with that and was indeed looking forward to starting my new CAREER!! It is now the end of January and I have yet to receive the information on when my NEO process would officially begin. The process itself will take a few weeks because I must have my fingerprints done, take a TB test, have a physical done, and finally go through one week of job training. I have been very patient and diligent in the process, but now I am beginning to become discouraged about the job. I told myself that I would be patient and wait until it was my time. I'm not sure if I can sit around much longer waiting on a reply, response, phone call, or something. I don't want to start the job searching process all over again, but a sister as got to do what a sister has got to do!! I will continue to keep my head up and push forward!! PEACE AND BLESSINGS

MY CULTURAL PLUNGE

Last weekend I had to immerse myself in another culture for my Master's Program. Of course I chose a culture that would challenge me to the fullest! I chose the disabled culture. I was a paraplegic for 24 hours. Being confined to a wheelchair was definitely an eye opening experience. Often times we take for granted the simple joys of life, like being able to use the restroom by ourselves, walking, and even the full meaning of being independent. I am the main caregiver in my home, taking care of my mom, my 90 year old granddad, and my younger sister. But, to have the tables turned around was definitely an experience I was not ready for. I briefly sat down with my family and explained to them what I was doing and that I would be needing their help. In the beginning my family was very helpful, but as time went on I realized that this task was something that I was going to have to face alone. My lil' sister was very helpful, she even helped me get the restroom at 3 o'clock in the morning. But, as Sunday morning came it seemed as if my disability had been forgotten. I am someone who wakes up pretty early in the morning, but because I was immersing myself in this plunge I could not get up and maneuver like I usually do. I lay in my bed until 11am when I realized that no one was going to come in and check on me. My greatest fear had come to look me straight in my face. At one point during the morning I actually became sad and even a bit depressed. I prayed that this experience would not be my reality because I knew that I would not be happy. I wheeled myself onto my front porch and spent about 30 minutes just thinking. In those few minutes I experienced a bevy of emotions that I did not realize, but definitely understood. I felt anger, sadness, frustration, and even disgust. I felt like my family had forgotten about me. I am a very strong individual and my family views me as such, but at that very moment I felt vulnerable. A sense of fear had set in that scared me and brought a few tears to my eyes. To know that my family would not be able to give me the type of care that I needed was scary. It was like they were completely oblivious to my needs. It was 12pm and still no one had even come to check on me. But, I was determined to get through this day with or without the help of my family. All I can say is this.......BE GRATEFUL FOR ALL THAT YOU HAVE!! ......PEACE AND BLESSINGS!!

MY RAINBOW

There's an old saying that the RAINBOW comes after the storm. I'm patiently waiting for my RAINBOW. I've been in the midst of a storm for the past few days and I am soaking wet!! (lol) You never truly know how strong you are until you experience something you have never experienced. As you all know I have been dealing with my mom and her various levels of depression. It has been a very difficult four years, but I have remained strong and kept my head held high. My PATIENCE and FAITH have been steadfast and I have even surprised myself. Through this journey I have realized who my real friends are and AREN'T!! I have decided to leave many in the wind and it feels damn good. Truthfully it hurts, but it doesn't surprise me because loyalty is far and few these days. Regardless of the storms I have been through GOD has shown me my RAINBOW and I must admit.......IT'S A BEAUTIFUL THING!! A vision of LOVELINESS. You could even say a sight for sore eyes. But I know that soon the RAINBOW that I have been waiting for will be withing my grasp.....And when it is....I AM GOING TO HOLD ON TIGHT!! MY WORDS TO U....FIND YOUR RAINBOW...I'VE JUST FOUND MINE!! PEACE AND BLESSINGS